I have been MIA for a while. Sorry about that but I have been on an adventure in pursuit of a well rounded life. I have had a lot of great experiences in the last few months.
I think the greatest one was turning 40. I know your thinking “Whoa did she just admit to being older than college age?” People seem to think that women are vain and refuse to reveal their age. I am not that chick. I am grateful to have reach my 4th decade. Where I come from a lot of people didn’t even make it out of their 20’s. I could have easily been a statistic but I had some great parents. And they showed me how great they are at my surprise party. All 4 ( my Mommy and Pappy and my Daddy and Mama2) came together to show me how blessed I am to have them in my life. I was also in the company of most of my siblings. And I must say that they make me proud to be the oldest sister of such a beautiful, eclectic, talented, and intelligent group. My family has taught me to love each person for the unique being that they are.
I also was invited to an Artist’s reception in the Education building at the Phoenix Art Museum. They were celebrating youth in Arts and my youngest daughter was one of two students chosen to represent her school. Her submission was a beautiful chalk pastel abstract. I never would have thought she would have work hanging in a museum. She never let on that she was a talented artist, let alone interested in fine art. I am awed by my 9 year old. She taught me that no matter how well you know a person, there are always hidden treasures.
I have also been out and about renewing relationships with people that I have missed in my life. I have also been severing some loyalties that appeared to be one sided. I have learned that sometimes I tend to put a lot of effort into the more challenging relationships and don’t make enough towards the stable ones. I have decided that, that approach is all wrong. When you expend a lot of effort for naught, it causes self doubt. When you don’t put the effort where you should, it causes recrimination. Both situations cause bitterness and broken relationships. So there are some people who I felt should be in my life that I am letting go of with love.
Finally I have begun to delve back into online education for fun. I am taking classes that I get a kick out of even if they are just “electives”. I don’t feel the urge to finish my degrees. I feel the urge to learn for the love of knowledge. I have decided that society cannot determine my self worth nor undermine my happiness with a couple of pieces of paper. I don’t need them to validate my intelligence. I also have no desire to tamp down on my natural curiosity for the sake of regurgitating the accepted “facts”. I may change my mind later on but for right now this is what makes me happy.
I have also renewed my commitment to moving to natural remedies, natural beauty and hygiene products, and whole food nutrition. As a consequence of this commitment, I get to conduct experiments. I have to research recipes for food and hygiene. I have to cobble together my own incarnation of the item. Allow for variation. Test the product. This is another type of self education that I am enjoying immensely.
I guess the theme of this post is to say that I am living happy right now. I know that it may not always be as simple. Really, who would want only good times? Without the bad times you wouldn’t appreciate the good times. Every day would be so mundane. I have reached a really good place in my physical, spiritual, and mental universe. I hope that you find your balancing point too.