July 10, 2014
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When I was a kid my goal was to be a microbiologist and the mother of 15. I got sidetracked and it didn’t work out that way. For years I felt worthless because my life leapt off that track like engine number 9. I saw my peers fulfilling all of their dreams. Later when I went back to college, I figured I would try an easier path and double major in psychology and social work but my heart wasn’t in it. So I was no happier than when I was feeling like a failure. Fast forward until today, I still have fears and sometimes they stop me in my tracks. But I no longer beat myself up for it. I acknowledge my BS and work through it. I practice giving myself the same support that I give to others. I remind myself that I don’t have to be perfect to be valuable, I just have to be authentic. I don’t have to be brave, I just have to keep going. Sometimes, it is not that easy but no one else can walk for me so I have no choice. (Well, I guess I do but I can’t see me just giving up the ghost like that.) I say all of this to say, even if it’s not the life you envisioned it is LIFE. Live it!